When We Don’t Trust The Good Stuff
Sometimes the hard part is not wanting something good. It is letting it arrive without turning it into another test.
How many of us have a habit of making life harder after life has already made room for us.
We don’t describe it that way, of course. We usually call ourselves being careful. Sensible. Prepared. Not the kind of person who gets carried away.
Good things show up in our lives, and rather than accepting what is right in front of us, we get nervous, go into fear, and talk ourselves out of something that might have held potential for being amazing!
The inner conversation looks like this. “I want it. It scares me. What if…? Is it too soon? Can I afford…? Am I being foolish?
Maybe this was one of those situations where I would get excited and then life would remind me who I was.
That last thought came so fast I almost didn’t notice it!
Life would remind me who I was. Not what was possible. Not what I had prayed for. Not what I had worked toward.
Apparently that sentence had been living in me for a long time.
Many of us grew up around people who trusted struggle more than ease. If something came too easily, someone was bound to say, “Don’t count on it.” If we was happy, someone reminded us to stay humble. If a door opened, someone asked what it would cost. Nobody meant harm. They thought they were protecting us. They were teaching ushow to survive disappointment.
Survival lessons can become ceilings if no one ever helps you take them down. Most old beliefs do sound strange once they’re dragged into the light, just like this one!
Have you spent years believing that anything meaningful had to arrive after exhaustion. Love had to be proven. Money had to be chased. Peace had to be earned. Rest had to be justified. Joy had to be delayed until every practical matter
had been handled and every possible objection had been answered. Believing in blessings, but only after a long application process.
Think about all the ways you have made suffering sound spiritual: – I’m being patient.
– I’m learning my lesson.
– I’m staying realistic.
– I’m waiting for the right time.
These are examples of fear asking to be called wisdom.
Today is the day that you can stop playing small and started opening up to possibilities:
– You are already good enough!
– You deserve!
– You can choose YOU!
Here is the lesson.
The words we use with ourselves matter. They gather in the body. They shape what we expect. They affect what we notice, what we allow, and what we quietly push away.
Have you spent years telling the universe that you were willing to receive, while telling yourself you probably did not deserve to?
That mixed message keeps you standing at the edge of many open doors. Pick one and walk through it! Today!
Not perfectly. Not without nerves. Not with a choir of angels and absolute certainty.
Just with a key in your hand and a new sentence beginning to form: Maybe good things don’t have to hurt first.
So many of the doors that we thought were locked, were simply appearing to be closed because we thought they were locked. We keep ourselves from becoming our best selves because we think we are less than what we actually are.
Now is the time to fully surrender and allow everything. time for settling for less is over.
In Light,
Jean
